Thought you might be encouraged with a fresh voice today that echoes my own. Or vice versa. Well, anyway, we both are echoes of the True Voice. Today’s Hat Tip goes to Kurt Willems, a pastor who calls himself a “lower-case evangelical, fairly charismatic and sometimes contemplative.” He says he’s “done living like a Christian.” Me too.
Something happened last week. I went on a retreat with an amazing spiritual director / teacher named Jan Johnson. By the end of our time together I realized that I’m done with living like a Christian.
- I’m done serving the poor.
- I’m done going the extra mile.
- I’m done being a husband who strives to love his wife as Christ loves the church.
- I’m done visiting the sick.
- I’m done opening up my life to Christian community.
- I’m done loving my neighbor.
- I’m done living with integrity.
- I’m done loving my enemies.
- I’m done giving finances to global causes.
- I’m done opposing violence.
- I’m done speaking out against hatred.
- I’m done standing up for the marginalized.
- I’m D-O-N-E done…
This past week made me realize that doing all these things won’t change the world. That’s because the world can’t be changed unless God changes me.
For the past several years, ups and downs defined my spiritual life. Moments in the journey were some of the most intimate encounters with Jesus that I’ve known. Real (nearly tangible) experiences, that can’t be explained by anything but the power of the Holy Spirit, took place. Other moments, when I showed love to a neighbor, prayed for an enemy, served the poor… these were times when Jesus was right there with me.
Then there were the times when I got stuck trying to live like Jesus. In the Christian world we call these “good works” or “ethics.” I made my aim “doing” rather than “being.” By “doing” I believed that my “being” would be consumed by an experience of the life of God. Unfortunately, the God encounters often fade when all my time is spent “doing” or theorizing about such “doing.”
For me, it’s time to stop doing. It’s time to simply be done. Done “doing” because the Holy Spirit invites us to stop and to “be.”
- To be the kind of person who serves the poor.
- Be the kind of person who goes the extra mile.
- Be the kind of person who is an awesome self-giving husband.
- Be the kind of person who visits the sick.
- Be the kind of person who opens my life up to Christian community.
- Be the kind of person who loves my neighbor.
- Be the kind of person who chooses integrity.
- Be the kind of person who loves enemies.
- Be the kind of person who gives generously to global causes.
- Be the kind of person who responds to evil with creative nonviolence.
- Be the kind of person who not only speaks out against hatred, but who suffers for the sake of the hated.
- Be the kind of person who stands in the margins with those who’ve been placed there by society (and even the church).
- I want to BE, and in the process, become a different kind of follower of Jesus.
Why the distinction? It’s easy to follow the Sermon on the Mount and other ethical teachings of Jesus and to miss the Christ who taught such things.
Dallas Willard puts it this way:
Jesus never expected us simply to turn the other cheek, go the second mile, bless those who persecute us, give unto them that ask, and so forth. These responses, generally and rightly understood to be characteristic of Chrsitlikeness, were put forth by him as illustrative of what might be expected of a new kind of person – one who intelligently and steadfastly seeks, above all else, to live within the rule of God and be possessed by the kind of righteousness that God himself has, as Matthew 6:33 portrays. Instead, Jesus did invite people to follow him into that sort of life from which behavior such as loving one’s enemies will seem like the only sensible and happy thing to do. For a person living that life, the hard thing to do would be to hate the enemy, to turn the supplicant away, or to curse the curser… True Christlikeness, true companionship with Christ, comes at the point where it is hard not to respond as he would.
So, yes, I’m done with living like a Christian. I’m trading that in for living in a deeper relationship with Christ. I want to know Jesus. I want to hear Jesus. I want to be empowered by Jesus. Not simply in theory as I do the good things that he calls us to do, but as the natural outflow of intimacy with God. The former way “gets the job done.” The latter way changes the world.
For me, this means a new-found intentionality of placing myself in a position to hear from the Spirit. Spiritual practices like – solitude, Sabbath, lectio divina, silence, confession, prayer, and practicing the presence of God – these neglected areas of my life have led to a Christianity defined by “doing” rather than “being.”
My prayer for us is that our intimate relationships with Christ would make it impossible to not respond with the ethics marked out by the Kingdom of God. Not out of effort to do good things, but out of our efforts to know Jesus Christ through an awareness of the presence of God’s Spirit. When this becomes normative, we won’t be able to help it… we will just start looking like Jesus.
 Dallas Willard, The Spirit of the Disciplines: Understanding How God Changes Lives,7-8.